I Spent Most of My Life
Trying to Fit Into a Life
That Wasn't Really Me.
For a long time, I didn't realize how much of myself I had learned to hide, change, or make myself smaller in order to feel accepted.
I thought that was just who I was.
MY STORY
I Learned Very Early
How to Adapt
As a child, I struggled with learning disabilities and spent years in special education. I knew what it felt like to be different and I became incredibly good at figuring out who I needed to be in order to fit in.
I learned to read the room. To make other people comfortable. To stay behind the scenes. To question myself before I questioned anyone else.
Eventually, those ways of being became so familiar that I couldn't separate who I really was from who I had learned to be.
I didn't know it then, but that distinction would eventually change everything.
THE MOMENT EVERYTHING CHANGED
In 2015, My Life
Changed in an Instant.
During a grand mal seizure, I went somewhere I never expected to go.
I remember complete darkness, and then an extraordinarily bright light appeared. Within it, I could see the silhouette of a presence.
What has stayed with me most, though, wasn't what I saw. It was what I felt.
There was no fear. For the first time in my life, I felt completely whole. There was a sense of peace and completeness that I had never known before.
And then I was forced back into my physical body.
But I didn't come back the same.
That experience changed the way I understood consciousness, life, and who we are beyond what we can see. But it also began changing the way I understood myself.
It was the beginning of a journey I couldn't have understood at the time—one that would eventually lead me here.
WHAT CAME NEXT
I Came Back and Could No Longer
Live a Life That Wasn't Mine.
My near death experience showed me something I could no longer unsee.
I had built a life around who everyone else expected me to be.
From the outside, I had done everything right. I was married. I had built two successful businesses. I had created a life that looked like success.
But I could finally see that so much of it had been built around being who I thought I needed to be for everyone else.
And once I saw that, I couldn't go back to pretending I didn't.
So I left my marriage. I closed both of my businesses. I walked away from so much of what I had known as me.
Not because I had all the answers.
Because I needed to discover the truth of who I was and why I had come back.
What followed wasn't an easy, perfectly mapped spiritual awakening. It was, and continues to be, a journey that unfolds for me every day.
But somewhere along that journey, something profound changed.
I went from living stressed, overwhelmed, and exhausted much of the time to experiencing a peace and joy I once thought depended on everything around me being okay.
Today, life can still be uncertain. Things don't always go according to plan.
What changed was me.
I no longer need everything around me to be perfect in order to feel peaceful, grounded, and joyful.
And that may be one of the greatest transformations of my life.
